If i were gone.

I wonder what the world would be like without me? would it be different? i dont think so, it be as if nothing have happened. I feel like im invisible and no one can see me, hear me and like no one care, i kind of given up trying to live like i care aniwaii, im just living day by day and trying get through life and see what it has to offer a person like me with no dream and hope of other then to see her idols star (tvxq) that how sad my life had become and right now i living to watch boys over flowers.

I hate the fact that i got 4 sibling and not one of them i can truely tell how i feel and what im going through, i just think we are way too different, if we didnt look the same i would never think we are related at all. I just done my hsc last year and sadly i didnt get what i wanted, but i know i try my best and i hate how they don't see that.
I hate the way they think i like my friend more then i like my own family, how can u possibly think that????
i hate the fact they alway make me feel bad when im out with my friend like once every full moon (i rearly goes out with them and when i goes i always come home early)
i hate how they would call me to see where i was and make me feel even worst and feel like i would be in trouble when i get home.
I hate the fact i always check what time it is when im out with my friends and feel like shit when it like 4-5 coz i need to get home now or im dead.
I hate how they think im always goes out when my friend think i never goes out
I always the good girl who kind of never done anything bad but they think the opposite.
I hate how he would disconnect the internet and how a soccer game is more important then driving me to the station <-- i'll remember this for the rest of my life how i sit and cried at the busstop coz i couldnt belive he said " im watching this " it like it more important and it cant wait!!!!
I hate how im crying over this!!!
i just needed to get it out coz i know no one would listen and i wouldnt tell them aniwaii coz i just know they couldnt care less, coz i know people ONLY care bout themself!!

lol omg i havent write for soooooo long well let start with my new love ahhaha JANG GEUN SUK
i love dis guy totally hahha more like obsession LOL

aniwaii it holiday now 2 week of relex and doin nothing YAY except for wrok but dat alright since i get money hahaha, planning to go zoo but not sure if gonna go coz ppl are busy and stuff and leng found a lover hahah cute of her ^^ hope she happy and he making her happy LOL

ooh and i cut my hair short LOL like really short like a 2 month ago but it grew back abit now. Having short hair is kool, it really easy to take care off like when i take shower it really fast to dry and water dont drip and stuff it all KOOL.

imma post picture of my new lover jang geun suk he is soooooooo hot

aniwaii i'll try and post soon with my new ps skill hahaha

^^ today is my 17th b'day yay ^^

lol aniiwaii let start of at the beginning, well at 12:02am hoa msg me lol to say happy, hahha cute of her. in the morning we went to bondi beach hehehe OMGOSH there were soooo many ppl there i guess it bc of public holiday, we didnt do much at the beach we just run in the water and run out it was fun tho ^^ but hot. den we decide to go city and took sum capital and play sum pick up toy omg i won 2 toy ^^ frist time eva hahahah.

oooh and hoa, leng and nancy gave me ^___^ RAIN RAINY DAY CONCERT, ROAD FOR RAIN, PHOTO SCRAP BOOK AND COUNTRYROAD BAG!!! THX U GUY, I <3 U =] omgosh the best b'day eva hahahah

this has been a report from wendy lol
write more next time with pic soon ^^

LOVE LOVE TVXQ
*sigh* aww will i ever be able to meet them in dis lifetime
i just saw the new all about tvxq season2 aww I WANT IT, i got the 1st one for my bday last yr and i love it ^__^

it nearly skool holiday and my 17th b'day ^^ im goin to buy myself a present LOL ipod nano the 3rd gen hahahhaha it soooo small and look really cute i cant wait to get it.

now yr 11 is doin the yearly test >.< today i did my maths test i sooo failed it, it was sooo hard *cry* byt whocare aniwaii i only got 2 more to go and it the holiday YAY.

aniiwaii i just write to say how much i love tvxq and they alway seen to make me smile at the saddest moment in life. I wonder wen i meet them will it be the same as wen i meet rain? will it just be 5 second and they are gone, i just hope they look at me ^^

wishlist as of now
all about tvxq season2
ipod nano3rd gen
camera

bye bye now, i write more on my bday